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Monday, January 9, 2006
Monday
January 9th, 2006
9:19pm
After a million years...haha
everything so far is going great..haha..Academically I guess.
But when it comes to friends,I think I need to re-check on my being a good friend.
To Iano who i'd want to say sorry for giving you a hard time almost everyday.I'm really sorry.Thank you for being really patient.But then I'd like to make it up to you A.S.A.P.
To Den you I placed chalk on a while ago.I know I got you pissed.Sorry.
To Mads and Yama who I owe loads of kwento to.
To Elisha who I think I haven't been doing my part in this friendship.
And to Prito who I think I haven't been there for to be the first to know about your kwentos.
I'll really try to make it up to you guys.
And oh ya.This weekend I "got close" to two dogs.Chuckie:Prito's dog and Snickers:My cousin's dog.Yay. :)
Current mood:  giddy |
Friday, December 30, 2005
Friday
December 30th, 2005
9:22am
I'm so tinatamad to type right now.
Well,I was able to talk to people on the phone yesterday.And to YOU who I used to write entries about:FINALLY.Things are going back to the way they used to be.We got to talk about things and actually agree on things that happened to both of us at the same days.lol.Well glad to have ya back. :)
And I'm not okay with this certain someone (as always)...Well I heard things that were sort of in opposition with what you were giving me as an excuse.So,do I want things to be like this?Uhm,not 'till you tell me the truth.
Aside from that,I'm going to the province today.Will be back on the 1st or 2nd.haha.
Then if I do get back on the second,I MIGHT have this gimmick with the people closest to me.So,I'll be calling you guys.lol.
Current mood: chipper |
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
Tuesday
December 27th, 2005
11:00am
I LOVED BOHOL!I'm dark now!haha. :) Check my friendster account for pictures!
Uy,what's happening tomorrow?haha. :) <3
Today,I'm going to a party of the son of my Taekwando coach.haha.I'm so excited!
I'll try to update again later!Sorry if this entry is so boring.haha.
Current mood: chipper |
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
Tuesday
December 20th, 2005
11:47pm
I LOVE TODAY and all the conversations I had with people.Leaving for Bohol tomorrow!I'm so excited!I hope things always stay like this... :) <3
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Tuesday
December 20th, 2005
1:13pm - Happy Day
I'M FINALLY OKAY WITH DEN!whohoo!I'm gonna have a great time in Bohol!Yeahboi! :)
Well,I'll make kwento what happened yesterday when I have the time.It's long eh. :)
But despite all the great things that happened yesterday,the highlight of yesterday is that I'm finally okay with Den and Iano...haha.
Plus,I got to text and talk to so much people yesterday.I feel so special. *sob* lol.haha.Oh well.I'll update maybe when I come back from Bohol. :)
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Saturday, December 17, 2005
Saturday
December 17th, 2005
6:05pm
I love,love,love today. :)
First of all,I wake up,take a shower and Iano calls.What a great way to start my day.I tell her everything and how bad I feel.I make myself sound stupid but end up feeling better after.haha.
Then I have a haircut and everyone who saw me tells me I look so much younger. :)
Then I go to my grandma's sister's house where we eat ALOT of chicken,spaghetti,ice cream,fruits,Nagaraya and Chicharon.(Is that how you spell it?)We watch Triple X or xXx and I go up to my cousin's roo.There I picked up a book which was inside a cabinet.Why I opened her cabinet of all the other things there?I do not know.I open it and it opens up to a page of taking risks,feeling bad,sulking then letting go.I think of how that can apply to my situation now and realize that if the other person doesn't seem to care,then there is no use trying to make things work.But then again,before I made a decision to give that "letting go" crap a try,AGAIN..I recieve a text-from Mads.She advices me and tells me the possibilities of the situation and I begin to think things through.I open the book again and it brings me to a story of a girl hanging on,holding on,not giving up though it seems like things between her and her other won't EVER be like before.Then I realize that once I do "let go",that means giving up on people I love and giving up all the chances I could have.Then I tell myself not to let go when I know I'm gonna come running back,AGAIN. :)So I decide to give it a shot more time.I've apologized for my mistake.I think I've done my part. :) I'm leaving it to you to decide of what is to happen. :)
Current mood: amused |
Friday, December 16, 2005
Friday
December 16th, 2005
2:13pm
This week was sooooo tiring.haha.But it was fun.
I'm going to Bohol next week!Yay!I hope that will help me forget about my problems even for only a week.
I'm okay with everyone I know except 3 people.2 of my bestfriends and 1 who is their bestfriend.
I was supposed to go to my auntie's house yesterday but I had no voice.I never knew it would be this hard to have no voice.lol.
I read someone's LJ.It was so sweet.I wish them the best of luck.
Current mood:  crushed |
Saturday, December 3, 2005
Saturday
December 3rd, 2005
8:45am
TE's!AAAAHHH!!!
Oh,Kai and I planned this thing but sadly,it can't push through.Parents and the traffic issue.Ugh.
I'm excited for December 19.But before that,I gotta get through the TE's.lol
Sister's first Holy Communion today.Oh yeah!haha.
I missed Prito yesterday!*sob*.I felt incomplete.
Anyway,I'll try to update later.hehe.
Current mood: waiting for the 19th |
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
Tuesday
November 29th, 2005
9:12pm
I think I'm in love.HAHA!But whatever.I'm still scared for the test results.Wish me luck.
Current mood: ecstatic |
Sunday, November 27, 2005
Sunday
November 27th, 2005
9:57pm
I'm fighting with you.As always.
I talked to Iano,Niki,Yama,Isay and Mariel today...I'm SO HAPPY,I swear.They gave me so much advice (THANK YOU FOR THE CORRECTION) and they made me feel so much better.Goodness.I love them all.I cannot live without them.lol.
Iano and I had this really serious and deep talk.We admitted so much things to each other.It was like we could read each other's minds.Grabe.We finished each other's sentences and we knew how the other EXACTLY felt.It felt GREAT talking to her again.Haha.Doesn't it feel good to admit it,Iano?lol.Love you bestfriend!
Current mood: ecstatic |
Sunday
November 27th, 2005
10:38am
wh haven't talked yet things got even worse.Let's see of what is to happen tomorrow.Because I can tell things aren't going to be fixed today.
I was supposed to call Niki yesterday but something went wrong with my phone.It started working really late na.So,Iano and I talked 'till 11 something because her mother told her to take a bath..And "someone' called me.Very unlikely though.But we still talked anyway.Until about 12 30 maybe.Grabe.My parents were at a party kasi eh.haha.
Then I'm gonna go to Mass today and eat out maybe at G4 and go to GB3 eventually.hehe.
Oh well,I really don't want to be sad and bum out over our problems.Because every time I do,you just let me be.Therefore,nothing happens and it seems like you don't care.But whatever,I should accept the fact that things aren't like the way they were ever since you made it seem like you found a new barkada.
NOTE TO SELF :Try to be happy.♥
Current mood: crushed |
Saturday, November 26, 2005
Saturday
November 26th, 2005
6:03pm
i probably shouldnt be telling you this but no matter
what you do to me, i'm still here ... for some crazy
reason i'll stick around through the bad times-& the
fights .. i'll make up excuses for why you didn't call,
why you never cared; i'll keep coming back for more
even when you push me away. i think i'm just staying
around so that one day when i finally do leave for good,
you'll look back & say wow, that girl really did love me.
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let's flip a coin -- heads; we'll be together.
tails; we'll flip again x3
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what should I say?
it doesn't matter anymore it all faded away
i'll tape up my heart
one minute ,you didn't care and ripped it all apart.
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Take out the picture
Blow off the dust
Take off the frame
It's starting to rust
Remember the time
We had together
What ever happen to
BESTFRIENDS FOREVER?
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That's why they're called crushes. If they were easier, they'd be called something else.
-Sixteen Candles
after all that's been said and done, you're
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just a part of me that i can't let go.
-Chicago
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I can't talk to you anymore. it's not that I'm mad at you. it's just that when I talk to you I realize how much I love you. and when I realize how much I love you I realize I can't have you. and that just makes me love you even more.. ---> ♥
But yes,despite the fact that I can hate you like hell almost everyday,I somehow end up loving you.♥♥♥
Jealously is the best compliment.♥
Current mood: we're not ok again :( ♥ |
Saturday
November 26th, 2005
5:26pm - Sad.
Still waiting for your call.I feel like we haven't talked on the phone for a million years.
Anyway,I'm excited for the coming days!*ehem ehem*..lol.
Current mood: Still waiting ♥ |
Thursday, November 24, 2005
Thursday
November 24th, 2005
9:35pm - F I N A L L Y
I am finally okay with my "sugar" again!haha.Muhn,today was harsh.Iano and I just passed each other several times like we never knew of each other's existence.I TRIED to get her attention while "searching for the OHP" but noo...She was too busy copying her shoe.haha.Funny-ness.I was supposed to fix things recess,lunch and dismissal but it seems like the sudden burst of courage to do so dies down when I'm at least 2 meters away from her.Oh well.She called me.We fixed things.I'm happy.Ü
Dismissal was horrible.The sight of you and her being all happy alone made me wanna vomit.Why?Plain and simple.You ignore the fact I am there when she's around.Joy.Confetti.Sarcasm.Ugh.
But then again,I'm beginning to start talking to Yama,Elisha,Mads and Manda again.Yay!Ü
But still,despite all the complications I've come upon today,being okay with "Sugar" gives me a million more reasons to smile.Ü
Current mood: crazy |
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
Wednesday
November 23rd, 2005
9:36pm - Eesh.
Yesterday we had a Science UT and a CLE quiz.Today we had a Filipino UT,our Sci Lab thing today was due along with the Lit. thing and the problem set.We had to do our WHOLE President Manuel Roxas thing today because Adie told me presentations start on the 28th.I know,I should’ve listened but I coincidently, that time,I wasn’t so,too bad for me.But we were able top finish it.Thank goodness.Then tomorrow,we are to have the CLE UT,the Filipino Powerpoint Presentation,the Math UT2 and the Socail Presentation.Did I tell you that he walked out on us and so did our Sci. Lab teacher?Well,yeah.STRESS,STRESS,STRESS.
It’s horrible.It’s disastrous and my eye bags are getting darker and darker.I’m usually in a bad mood.Iano,Jella and Monika were the first ones to notice,right guys?Right.[Oh and for some reason Den,too]Then someone starts saying that I’ve been acting really different and she’s missing how things used to be.But guess what?I miss them too.I’m just under so much pressure now.I do wanna talk to you and tell you things about my life but at the moment,I can’t.Can’t you see that?It’s really hard to have you add to my problems.Seriously.I mean that in a good way.It’s just that I have loads of things to do and you give me more to worry about.Not that I do not care about our friendship but it’s because you must understand that this week is complicated.So,since you make it seem like MY fault,and maybe because it is,let me put it this way,let me make it up to you on Friday,okay?I just need to finish so much things.People are depending on me with some things and I depend on you to understand me,not as some person who can see me from a distance but as my bestfriend.
My thank you list for today:
1)Elisha – It’s great that you and I have started sharing things again.
2)Prito and Kyla- You guys are great.You made me smile more than anyone else.
3)Jella and Monika – Thank you for constantly being there for me.
4)the Sters – You guys gave me a million reasons to smile today.
5)Kate – Love!Thank goodness for your ability to make me smile.
6)Jani – Widgie!Haha.I love you!
7)Julia Chu (the taller one) – I love how we just have so much kalokohans during Math!
8.)Adie – You’re the greatest seatmate ever.
[There are more I wanna thank but I guess these are today’s top,those who have lessened my load]
Current mood: drained |
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
Tuesday
November 22nd, 2005
9:16pm - ishmile
Hello dear friends.lol.Ü
Well,I was late today.grr…I woke up late and because I am now forced to eat breakfast.So,what do you expect?But I just ate like one or two beef pieces then got half a spoonful of rice.hehe.at least I ate diba?Yeah..well.
Anyway,hmm…yesterday was sad na hindi but I called someone for the first time.lol.Basta,yesterday was fun.I was also found out that I still mean something to someone I thought I have lost a long time ago.Ü.haha.Ü.
Today was fun.I don’t know why but I liked today.Ü.I was able to patch things up with Yams [not completely but that will do – for now].And I got to spend my whole dismissal with Jel,Den and Kai.Coolness.I fought with Iano,Jella and Monika but we fixed things anyway.Just a note to some people out there:PLEASE DO NOT IGNORE ME JUST BECAUSE YOUR BESTFRIEND AND I AINT OKAY.AND TO SOMEONE ELSE,DON’T MAKE ME DAMAY WHEN YOU’RE IN A BAD MOOD.(I understand your situation but then I don’t think it gives you a reason to act this way towards me,k? )It just pisses me off like heck.Okay?Okay. .But oh well,dismissal time made my day.Kalokohans!Ü
Yikes.I have to tell someone something I never wanted to tomorrow.I’m scared.
Well,I guess that’s it… üü.BYE![ang labo ng ending ü]
Muwah!
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Friday, November 18, 2005
Friday
November 18th, 2005
8:55pm
“KARA!!!”
You screamed my name the moment I got in the classroom and you greeted me with the warmest hug.You excuse yourself from the group you hang out with and pull me aside.You say,"Let's talk.I miss you."We talk 'till the bell cuts our conversation short.You say,"Let's finish this later.I want to turn things around to how they were before." You hug me and we proceed to I-4.The bell rings and we go to our classes.You come to me every now and then to check up on me.You hug me to assure me that you are there and things will sail smoothly.I smile and tell you that I appreciate it.Dismissal approaches and I am to leave.You see me and you give me hug and you say,"I'll call you later."I smile and hug you for several seconds and say good-bye.You call me and we exchange kwentos.We laugh 'till it hurts and after hours,I say I have to go.You finish the conversation by saying "Good night.I'm glad we talked.I miss those seventh grade days.I'll see you tomorrow aryt?You take care bestfriend."You end my day leaving me with a smile.I couldn't believe this was happening.You finally did something about our situation.I was more than satisfied.I closed my eyes and went to bed knowing that I finally have you back.
I opened my eyes just to find out that this was all a dream.Yes,a dream.Aren’t dreams some of things you want to happen but in the mean time these are things you wish would happen?Well,yeah.This is my dream,I know you know who are.Just to let you know,this is what I think about day and night.It’s hard--the waiting.But you see,because of how important you are to me,I choose to wait for this day to come no matter how long it will take.Just please make this dream come true before it’s too late.
I miss you bstfwnd.
Current mood: hopeful |
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
Tuesday
November 15th, 2005
10:11pm
I am about to let out all my feelings to you and how you've been acting.It's gonna come-soon.Just wait.
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Friday, November 11, 2005
Friday
November 11th, 2005
9:38pm - ah yes.
Well,I wanna change my background.Iano dear?Help.
Today was so-so.FINALLY.You minded me and we finally fixed things up.I didn't wanna make the 'first move' this time.I wanted to see whether you still cared about our friendship even though you got close to HER.Ack.I hate her for ruining everything.I hate her.And I'm sorry if I have offended you with saying that.I just spent how many months trying to keep our friendship at the level we both like it and everything went fine until she came.I hate her.I hate her.I hate her.But you know what I was thinking of?Did you want to fix things just because we are groupmates and we needed to work together?Or was it really coz you wanted to be bestfriends again?Please.Tell me.I need to know.But for now,I'm happy that we're okay and we're trying to turn things to the way it was before.But I missed you and I'm glad I have you back. <3
YOU.We are fighting again.I thought that you won the bet that we didn't fight?I guess that you did yesterday and I did today.Coz guess what?We're fighting.AGAIN.
You didn't do anything when I did.When?T.H.E.But it looks like you enjoyed today and you don't seem like doing anything about it.If nothing happens talaga and I hear nothing from you?I'll fix things.LET ME DO IT.It seems like I'm the only one who can't stand fighting.
Current mood: hopeful |
Saturday, November 5, 2005
Saturday
November 5th, 2005
7:32pm - Tagal na!
What do you do when you miss someone so much say,your cousins in America,Germany,Indonesia and Singapore?Somewhere so far that in order to see them you need to ride a plane?
I miss them so much and all the times we used to have.All of us are growing up and still we haven't been able to spend as much time together compared to how you guys have.I was supposed to go with my cousin and his friends to Mercantile and Plaza Senayan but then it was cut short. :( I wanna go to Germany where he is now and he's gonna teach me how to snowboard and do the flip.He helped teach me how to ski and I hope it won't be too late to learn how do his flip when I go there probably this upcoming summer.It's so annoying how our break has to be their school time and our school time their break.Ugh.The moment I see him and Cici I will forget about touring the place and shopping the whole time.Unless if it means having them come with me. :) Oh well.I wanna learn how to do the flip!It looks so fun!Check out my testimonials and look at his pics.[his name is Richard].You'll see how cool it looks. :) Yeah.I don't know why it suddenly came to me:missing them.I guess since it's sembreak and I have spare time,I get to think about the people I miss.Oh well.I think that there's gonna be a time din na I'll get what I want. :) It just sucks that the things I want turn out to be some of the most complicated things in the world.I mean,to get to Germany,you'll need alot of money to bring the whole family there,right?But whatever.
I envy you guys who can just call up your cousins and hang out with them.
Watched the Legend of Zorro last Monday and I ate at Haiku.Watched Flightplan and saw Jella yesterday at gb3 and we ate and Sentro. :p
Dad's birthday last Wednesday.Ate at Circles.Finally.Something that will perk me up. :D
ANYWAY...
Well,I'm beginning to text with someone I lost touch sometime before more often now.I'm glad were able to fix some things. :)
Someone is getting me confused again.But I'm sort of used to it anyway.
Was supposed to go to Iano's last Friday.Too bad I got grounded and she went to San Lo.Besides I heard that some other person's coming over.Ack.
I'm counting down the days till Tuesday.I'm excited to see everyone again.haha.Everyone owes me kwento.
Current mood: cheerful |
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